hari ni hari sabtu. semalam ada exam which i did not do very well. good luck to me, heh! i'm so bored today because supposed i have to be out of state or anywhere warm for this fucking spring break. but, i don' go anywhere. nevermind, that's nothing. if the times come for me to travel, i will go. for sure i'll go home this summer for three months. doing what at home? God knows. i think of doing some shopping today. yesterday i went to MOA with pyan, lalat and zaid (RPIan batch mamat). i just bought a perfume, which smelled good to me. another story, there will be a briefing for petronas scholars next month in indianapolis and they said the atteandance is compulsory. i plan o fgoing there by flight on friday because what's the use i go there on thursday? no good reason whatsoever. and i want to return home as soon as possible on sunday. well, it just a damn fucking boring thing that the HRM does for every fucking year. this year, i could say it doesn't have any fucking importance to me as i'm not going to graduate soon.
after the fucking analytical lab exam yesterday, i was so fed up that i asked lalat and hasnor to have lunch wih me. so, we went to village wok, a chinese restaurant in U area. at frst i ordered large walleye but they said it wasn't available. so i ordered 2 small walleyes which were the size of an adult cat each. luckily there were three of us. although hasnor did not each much, lalat and i managed to finished the meal. what could i say of typical chinese dishes is that it's oily and don't forget the chinese restaurant syndrome that i learnt from high school chemistry. for me, if there's a malay restaurant nearby, i would go there everyday, except when i am out of money.
fuck today and whenever i feel bad. thank goodness, i know to write a little english, although i'm not that fluent in speaking. what to talk? nothing...nothing whatsoever. i already escaped class for these two weeks. the laziness has already conquered my nerves. i'm letting myself down with it. who the fuck care, right? when i looked around, with the messy room and all those non-living things scattered on my bedrom floor, i feel messed myself. i have a history of been very tidy person but now, as i live by myself, i don't know how to manage myself anymore. so fucked up that even a slight ray of light at the end of the tunnel can't get through my cloudy head.
in my windows messenger, i saw my brother's name online. i contacted him for a while but he seemed not interested chatting with me. and my decision is, if he id not want to talk to me, why the care i should chat with him? i don t know what he's going to do after my parents die. i don't want that happens but in reality, no one can escape death. eh, tetiba ram message aku yang anas ajak tengok wayang kat mall. aku in microseconds setuju. nanti aku tulis lagi.
